Always In Deep Thought...
New York Born & Raised
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
The Color of Love
I've lost my spark
I'm passionate yet I've lost the ark
to take me away
Wading in an ocean of emotions
Further down in an abyss I stay.
This beam of light diminishes
as the anchor draws me deeper... away,
In many ways I look at this and say
It's the story of love we once shared
and now this day...
There is no longer, just what was...
A beautiful color turned to gray.
I'd hate to think it was a mistake
No regrets all decisions made I'll claim.
My heart, I feel I must train.
Yet I have visions of a perfect love
everlasting it will no longer fade.
His distance I feel, a name not known,
But in my heart it's engraved.
Perhaps love knows
before we were even made
Love is a funny entity
not quite logical
inheriting an infamous fame
Love, a funny thing really.
Embodies red, purples, greens
yellows, blues in every hue
Revealing beauty and darkness
in each and every ray
Looking for that white dove
to lead the way.
The purest of all shades
reflecting all colors
in every which way.
Can you withstand the rain
the downpour
all of it can you take?
Can you keep love before it
turns to gray?
Love waits for no one
With love...
There is no second, minute
or day.
Saturday, June 11, 2011
Night Angels "I just want to be a Woman"
Artist: Portishead "Glory Box"
Videographer: Issa Bolden
Follow on Twitter: @MissTiannah & @M_Eez (http://www.maryamzee.blogspot.com/)
TRUTH IS TO FALSE
Truth. The anecdote to what is false.
Many argue, it's back up by facts and/or a reliable source.
But what if it's based on faith, may not make sense at all.
No scientific explanation, doesn't necessarily mean it's false.
Truth. Within or without. Content in silence or proclaim it out loud.
Truth. A somewhat logical consistency--or a surprisingly believed farce.
A truth because of massive acceptance or unfortunate misconception.
A viable belief. A separation of a people causing permanent distinction.
Some are free to practice their truths, some locked away or abused.
Some exhilarated and in freedom, other in bondage because of truth.
A remedy to falsity.
A balance from falsehoods to its facts.
Without truth, clarity lacks.
But my truth isn't the same for Pat.
Fingers point left, right, front and back.
Calling out impostors names--blaming, "Who you calling Rat!"
A perpetual cycle, grab a hold truth with a tightened strap.
Ride the back of yours, someone else's is a trap...
Many argue, it's back up by facts and/or a reliable source.
But what if it's based on faith, may not make sense at all.
No scientific explanation, doesn't necessarily mean it's false.
Truth. Within or without. Content in silence or proclaim it out loud.
Truth. A somewhat logical consistency--or a surprisingly believed farce.
A truth because of massive acceptance or unfortunate misconception.
A viable belief. A separation of a people causing permanent distinction.
Some are free to practice their truths, some locked away or abused.
Some exhilarated and in freedom, other in bondage because of truth.
A remedy to falsity.
A balance from falsehoods to its facts.
Without truth, clarity lacks.
But my truth isn't the same for Pat.
Fingers point left, right, front and back.
Calling out impostors names--blaming, "Who you calling Rat!"
A perpetual cycle, grab a hold truth with a tightened strap.
Ride the back of yours, someone else's is a trap...
Malika, the pen holder
Untitled
It no longer matters where my physical dwells
My inspiration is drawn from my internal soul
I don't know why I haven't thought of this before...
But the power I've always had...no longer unknown.
From sun up to sun down, searching for understanding-
Learning to be aware that the soul needs to be searched first,
as your true purpose begins unraveling...
Knowledge and wisdom starts to quench your thirst.
Yes! Struggles, discomfort, fears--they're seasonings of a Queen so true.
And Sometimes the night crawls in, flesh crawls to bed, tears becomes a pillow,
Wondering if these cries God only hears....holding my breath for a miracle----
As my face turns blue and my mind becomes clear after stressing over issues so trivial.
As I call out to the mighty one, it seems as if I exist alone,
but truth be told I must hold on....
Through God and my true understanding of self,
The patches of uncertainty would soon become sewn.
I am not just existing..
But my potential will meet my destiny
Not just thoughts of encouragement but thoughts of the truth and believing..
This is my life, God has blessed me with I will not be defeated.
Yes! I am a free spirit yet my actions in training can be disciplined
Maturity understands this, builds character and strength
My mistakes and downfalls will not force me to retreat.
Only push me to search the truth and positivity
My inspiration is drawn from my internal soul
I don't know why I haven't thought of this before...
But the power I've always had...no longer unknown.
From sun up to sun down, searching for understanding-
Learning to be aware that the soul needs to be searched first,
as your true purpose begins unraveling...
Knowledge and wisdom starts to quench your thirst.
Yes! Struggles, discomfort, fears--they're seasonings of a Queen so true.
And Sometimes the night crawls in, flesh crawls to bed, tears becomes a pillow,
Wondering if these cries God only hears....holding my breath for a miracle----
As my face turns blue and my mind becomes clear after stressing over issues so trivial.
As I call out to the mighty one, it seems as if I exist alone,
but truth be told I must hold on....
Through God and my true understanding of self,
The patches of uncertainty would soon become sewn.
I am not just existing..
But my potential will meet my destiny
Not just thoughts of encouragement but thoughts of the truth and believing..
This is my life, God has blessed me with I will not be defeated.
Yes! I am a free spirit yet my actions in training can be disciplined
Maturity understands this, builds character and strength
My mistakes and downfalls will not force me to retreat.
Only push me to search the truth and positivity
SO YOU WANT TO KNOW WHO I AM...YOU GOT IT
SO IF THE APPLE DOESN'T FALL FAR FROM THE TREE, IF MY MOTHER IS STRONG WHY WOULDN'T I BE?
THERE ARE SO MANY WISHING TO SEE ME FALL, I MAY BE 5'4 BUT I'LL ALWAYS STAND TALL.
YES I'M UNIQUE, I'M DIFFERENT...A MILLION OTHERS.
I CAN ONLY BE ME, DESTINED FROM BIRTH JUST FOR STARTERS..
FROM THE WOMB I WAS STRONG, YET I WAS BORN A PREMI..
GREEDY AS AN INFANT, I WAS ALWAYS HUNGRY.
I LOVE IT JUST TO BE COMFORTABLE ON MY OWN TWO FEET,
I'M RIDING THE TAIL OF SUCCESS, NEVER SKIPPING A BEAT.
MY ARMS PRE-MADE JUST FOR THE REACH, MY FINGERS ALREADY PREPARING A THANK-YOU SPEECH.
I LIKE THE HATERS, WHO THINK THEY KNOW WHAT I'LL SAY BEFORE I SPEAK.
THEIR WORDS ARE JUST REDUNDANT, LIKE A PARROT AND ITS BEAK.
SOME THINK I'VE GONE MAD, BUT I JUST HAVE A MAD STREAK.
HUNGRY FOR SUCCESS, WANT TO RIDE OUT TO MY PEAK.
WHEN I DO, I'LL SPRINKLE THE GAINS LIKE A FORMING STREAM FROM A LEAK.
NOT CARING WHAT PEOPLE THINK, NOT ASHAMED LIKE A FREAK.
IMMA SHARE IT, NOT BECAUSE OF FAME BUT I BELIEVE IN GIVING AND UNITY.
I CARE ABOUT PEOPLE, DON'T CARE TO SEE THEM FALL BENEATH.
IT'S NOT ABOUT YOUR TITLE, BUT THE EYES YOU OPEN TO SEE, FROM THE LIES THAT PUT CHAINS ON
YOU AND I, SO THE TRUTH WE SEEK.
I AM, THE PAIN THAT I FEEL FOR OTHERS AND ME...FEEL TOO STRONGLY THAT I COULD PULL OUT
THESE PEARLY WHITE TEETH.
I AM... PASSION, I FEEL TOO STRONGLY FOR THESE MEAN STREETS.
I WON'T START A FIST FIGHT, CAN'T EVEN HURT A FLEA...
BUT I'LL ROCK HARD LIKE A THUG TO THIS SONG AND THIS BEAT.
BUT DON'T GET IT TWISTED, I WILL DEFEND DON'T MESS WITH ME.
I'LL BE A CONTRADICTION, PULL A HEM, NEXT A FOOT ON YOUR NECK HAVE YOU SCREAMING PLEASE.
I AM LOVE, SHOWING MY CARE SO PASSIONATELY,
LOVE TO FALL IN---TOO MANY TIMES SEEMINGLY
I AM MY WORD, IT'S ALL YOU GOT KEEPING IT REAL CAUSE I HAVE HEART
NOT ABOUT SHADY SCHEMES
I LOVE MY CITY, WHERE I GREW UP... N. Y. C...
HEMPSTEAD, WHERE YOU AT?, BROOKLYN, HELLO QUEENS!
FASHION CITY, FASHION SENSE, FASHION A MUST, THIS IS ME.
MORE THAN CLOTHES, BUT A STATEMENT, A LIFESTYLE, JUST CALL ME A FIEND.
I AM EXPRESSION, CREATIVE ART, NEVER RUNNING OUT OF STEAM
RELEASING INHIBITIONS, ALWAYS INVENTING, REJUVENATING..I AM QUEEN.
YOU BECOME WHAT YOU PRACTICE AND YOU SAY WHAT IT IS YOU MEAN.
YET WRITING MIGHT BE BETTER, EXPLAINING MAY BRING SOME DIFFICULTY..
I NEED POSITIVE PEOPLE AROUND ME, I NEED THAT LIFTING VIBE, THAT ENERGY..
THAT DON'T COME EASY, TOO MANY PEOPLE WITH FALSITIES.
I LOVE MY FAMILY, WITHOUT THEM I BELIEVE THERE IS NO ME...
MY CULTURE, SO DIVERSE, JAMAICA STAND UP GT!
BORN TO IMMIGRANTS WHO'VE MIGRATED HERE TO FIND THE AMERICAN DREAM...
SO I CAN'T FAIL, CARRYING THE TORCH MAKING A PATH FOR THE GENERATIONS TO BE.
BORN IN A GHETTO YET RAISED TO BE PRODUCTIVE IN SOCIETY.
HEARD THE JOKES HAD PEOPLE TELL ME WHAT I DREAM ARE IMPOSSIBILITIES.
BORN ALONE, MY SECOND HALF GONE HAD TO LEARN THAT'S HOW IT WAS TO BE.
DIDN'T KNOW I WAS A TWO UNTIL I HIT PUBERTY..
THOUGH IT NEVER FULLY FORMED ALWAYS KNEW A PART WAS MISSING FROM ME.
NEVER A MISTAKE, PRE-WRITTEN, BEFORE I COULD EVEN SPEAK.
SAW DIFFERENT WORLDS, LIVED AND HAD GREAT OPPORTUNITIES.
PARENTS SHIELDED ME FROM TROUBLE YET TROUBLE ALWAYS FOUND ME..
BUT I PERSEVERED, NOT A VICTIM, BUT I SING VICTORY.
I UNDERSTAND NOW, IT'S AS CLEAR AS MY MEMORIES.
'NEVER FORGET WHERE YOU CAME FROM' MY BEGINNINGS, LIKE LEARNING MY ABC'S
ALL MY LIFE EVENTS, MY STRUGGLES, PAINS, CRYING, PRAYING ON MY KNEES..
I MAKE MISTAKES, I'M ONLY HUMAN, SOMETIMES I MAY WALK WITH TWO LEFT FEET.
SOMETIMES I'M RIGHT, AT TIMES I'M WRONG BUT I'LL STICK TO MY BELIEF...
NOT AFRAID TO ADMIT MY FAULT, WHEN TRUTH RISES TO THE TOP FROM THE BOTTOM OF THE SEA.
I THANK GOD BECAUSE I KNOW IT'S JUST TO SEASON ME, FOR WHAT I WILL BECOME
AN EVEN BETTER ME...
THERE ARE SO MANY WISHING TO SEE ME FALL, I MAY BE 5'4 BUT I'LL ALWAYS STAND TALL.
YES I'M UNIQUE, I'M DIFFERENT...A MILLION OTHERS.
I CAN ONLY BE ME, DESTINED FROM BIRTH JUST FOR STARTERS..
FROM THE WOMB I WAS STRONG, YET I WAS BORN A PREMI..
GREEDY AS AN INFANT, I WAS ALWAYS HUNGRY.
I LOVE IT JUST TO BE COMFORTABLE ON MY OWN TWO FEET,
I'M RIDING THE TAIL OF SUCCESS, NEVER SKIPPING A BEAT.
MY ARMS PRE-MADE JUST FOR THE REACH, MY FINGERS ALREADY PREPARING A THANK-YOU SPEECH.
I LIKE THE HATERS, WHO THINK THEY KNOW WHAT I'LL SAY BEFORE I SPEAK.
THEIR WORDS ARE JUST REDUNDANT, LIKE A PARROT AND ITS BEAK.
SOME THINK I'VE GONE MAD, BUT I JUST HAVE A MAD STREAK.
HUNGRY FOR SUCCESS, WANT TO RIDE OUT TO MY PEAK.
WHEN I DO, I'LL SPRINKLE THE GAINS LIKE A FORMING STREAM FROM A LEAK.
NOT CARING WHAT PEOPLE THINK, NOT ASHAMED LIKE A FREAK.
IMMA SHARE IT, NOT BECAUSE OF FAME BUT I BELIEVE IN GIVING AND UNITY.
I CARE ABOUT PEOPLE, DON'T CARE TO SEE THEM FALL BENEATH.
IT'S NOT ABOUT YOUR TITLE, BUT THE EYES YOU OPEN TO SEE, FROM THE LIES THAT PUT CHAINS ON
YOU AND I, SO THE TRUTH WE SEEK.
I AM, THE PAIN THAT I FEEL FOR OTHERS AND ME...FEEL TOO STRONGLY THAT I COULD PULL OUT
THESE PEARLY WHITE TEETH.
I AM... PASSION, I FEEL TOO STRONGLY FOR THESE MEAN STREETS.
I WON'T START A FIST FIGHT, CAN'T EVEN HURT A FLEA...
BUT I'LL ROCK HARD LIKE A THUG TO THIS SONG AND THIS BEAT.
BUT DON'T GET IT TWISTED, I WILL DEFEND DON'T MESS WITH ME.
I'LL BE A CONTRADICTION, PULL A HEM, NEXT A FOOT ON YOUR NECK HAVE YOU SCREAMING PLEASE.
I AM LOVE, SHOWING MY CARE SO PASSIONATELY,
LOVE TO FALL IN---TOO MANY TIMES SEEMINGLY
I AM MY WORD, IT'S ALL YOU GOT KEEPING IT REAL CAUSE I HAVE HEART
NOT ABOUT SHADY SCHEMES
I LOVE MY CITY, WHERE I GREW UP... N. Y. C...
HEMPSTEAD, WHERE YOU AT?, BROOKLYN, HELLO QUEENS!
FASHION CITY, FASHION SENSE, FASHION A MUST, THIS IS ME.
MORE THAN CLOTHES, BUT A STATEMENT, A LIFESTYLE, JUST CALL ME A FIEND.
I AM EXPRESSION, CREATIVE ART, NEVER RUNNING OUT OF STEAM
RELEASING INHIBITIONS, ALWAYS INVENTING, REJUVENATING..I AM QUEEN.
YOU BECOME WHAT YOU PRACTICE AND YOU SAY WHAT IT IS YOU MEAN.
YET WRITING MIGHT BE BETTER, EXPLAINING MAY BRING SOME DIFFICULTY..
I NEED POSITIVE PEOPLE AROUND ME, I NEED THAT LIFTING VIBE, THAT ENERGY..
THAT DON'T COME EASY, TOO MANY PEOPLE WITH FALSITIES.
I LOVE MY FAMILY, WITHOUT THEM I BELIEVE THERE IS NO ME...
MY CULTURE, SO DIVERSE, JAMAICA STAND UP GT!
BORN TO IMMIGRANTS WHO'VE MIGRATED HERE TO FIND THE AMERICAN DREAM...
SO I CAN'T FAIL, CARRYING THE TORCH MAKING A PATH FOR THE GENERATIONS TO BE.
BORN IN A GHETTO YET RAISED TO BE PRODUCTIVE IN SOCIETY.
HEARD THE JOKES HAD PEOPLE TELL ME WHAT I DREAM ARE IMPOSSIBILITIES.
BORN ALONE, MY SECOND HALF GONE HAD TO LEARN THAT'S HOW IT WAS TO BE.
DIDN'T KNOW I WAS A TWO UNTIL I HIT PUBERTY..
THOUGH IT NEVER FULLY FORMED ALWAYS KNEW A PART WAS MISSING FROM ME.
NEVER A MISTAKE, PRE-WRITTEN, BEFORE I COULD EVEN SPEAK.
SAW DIFFERENT WORLDS, LIVED AND HAD GREAT OPPORTUNITIES.
PARENTS SHIELDED ME FROM TROUBLE YET TROUBLE ALWAYS FOUND ME..
BUT I PERSEVERED, NOT A VICTIM, BUT I SING VICTORY.
I UNDERSTAND NOW, IT'S AS CLEAR AS MY MEMORIES.
'NEVER FORGET WHERE YOU CAME FROM' MY BEGINNINGS, LIKE LEARNING MY ABC'S
ALL MY LIFE EVENTS, MY STRUGGLES, PAINS, CRYING, PRAYING ON MY KNEES..
I MAKE MISTAKES, I'M ONLY HUMAN, SOMETIMES I MAY WALK WITH TWO LEFT FEET.
SOMETIMES I'M RIGHT, AT TIMES I'M WRONG BUT I'LL STICK TO MY BELIEF...
NOT AFRAID TO ADMIT MY FAULT, WHEN TRUTH RISES TO THE TOP FROM THE BOTTOM OF THE SEA.
I THANK GOD BECAUSE I KNOW IT'S JUST TO SEASON ME, FOR WHAT I WILL BECOME
AN EVEN BETTER ME...
Out the Woodworks
So much passion and energy, an eruption on Dante's Peak about to explode I'm on overheat.
Casting a shadow over my enemies, bad luck is your fortune your cuts made me bleed...
But I'm not dead Im just finally..Im stronger now from the ground look up I continue to suceed.
Many didn't but I just had to believe...It's either up or down my definition of success I hold the key.
Is it fast cars, a big house, forever fresh and clean
Or is it pay the debt of my family Do I take up the cross for my homies on the streets
Make sure my nieces want for nothing, prepare for my unborn seeds.
Some say Im over my head thinking up to big a dream
Failure, my biggest fear I need a strong team.
We stick together "Death before Disloyalty"
but it's hard to find true ones in double the amount of phonies
To me no purpose in life is like a catastrophe
What you do on this Earth who you help before you leave
I pray to God I can give back somehow to my community, but its hard to smile with
frowns tryna block me. So I can't see.
Its a rough job but Destiny chose me, I already know I bear the cross of the unseen.
I feel broken hears so they can be pain free.
Maybe I should have a drink to numb the blows I would receive.
No matter how many curses or spells you try to throw on me, it will fall back to you twice as bad backfire on your scheme!
I'm not Christ no where close I am unclean but I know through his blood, he covers me
I should have been dead long time but just like a light beam...
He shed his light so bright don't know why he saved me.
So success in my stars that's my Destiny. Struggles and pain, they're not there to finish me
I've got a heart of steel and my vision's clear I am not yet out of steam
The pressure never dies and I yearn sleep from anxiety
My pulse forever rising my heart still ticking, no time to prop my feet
So I can't let the next one claim my seat,
Take everything, my future... this will not be my defeat
So I'll continue to rid the negative and plant the positive and always take that leap.
Casting a shadow over my enemies, bad luck is your fortune your cuts made me bleed...
But I'm not dead Im just finally..Im stronger now from the ground look up I continue to suceed.
Many didn't but I just had to believe...It's either up or down my definition of success I hold the key.
Is it fast cars, a big house, forever fresh and clean
Or is it pay the debt of my family Do I take up the cross for my homies on the streets
Make sure my nieces want for nothing, prepare for my unborn seeds.
Some say Im over my head thinking up to big a dream
Failure, my biggest fear I need a strong team.
We stick together "Death before Disloyalty"
but it's hard to find true ones in double the amount of phonies
To me no purpose in life is like a catastrophe
What you do on this Earth who you help before you leave
I pray to God I can give back somehow to my community, but its hard to smile with
frowns tryna block me. So I can't see.
Its a rough job but Destiny chose me, I already know I bear the cross of the unseen.
I feel broken hears so they can be pain free.
Maybe I should have a drink to numb the blows I would receive.
No matter how many curses or spells you try to throw on me, it will fall back to you twice as bad backfire on your scheme!
I'm not Christ no where close I am unclean but I know through his blood, he covers me
I should have been dead long time but just like a light beam...
He shed his light so bright don't know why he saved me.
So success in my stars that's my Destiny. Struggles and pain, they're not there to finish me
I've got a heart of steel and my vision's clear I am not yet out of steam
The pressure never dies and I yearn sleep from anxiety
My pulse forever rising my heart still ticking, no time to prop my feet
So I can't let the next one claim my seat,
Take everything, my future... this will not be my defeat
So I'll continue to rid the negative and plant the positive and always take that leap.
Friday, June 10, 2011
International Hair Show in Secaucus, NJ (spokes-model)
Last month in May, I had the wonderful opportunity of representing Shake N Go Hair as a Spokes-model. I advertised the new Cuticle Remy XQ hair weave, which is an upgrade for the SAGA Remy Hair weave. It was truly an exhilarating experience where I've met so many wonderful people. Everyone, whether they had similar goals to my own or have achieved many other things, had become an inspiration to me. Not to mention, this was my first gig as "spokes-model." Danielle, my hairstylist, did an awesome job putting in that full-head weave with my natural hair only being 3/4 of an inch! lol. I had also met another wonderful person Naja Matthews, who I've learned so much from! Amazing.
A few guest appearances were made by the cast of Jerseylicious (style network) and also Derek J (Housewives of ATL). Let me tell you... Derek is Fabulous!
A few guest appearances were made by the cast of Jerseylicious (style network) and also Derek J (Housewives of ATL). Let me tell you... Derek is Fabulous!
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| Jerseylicious (Style Network) |
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| Spokesmodels: Naja Matthews, Tiannah Bruce (me) & Hairstylist: Danielle Wright |
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| Derek J |
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| CUTICLE REMY XQ WEAVE |
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| PHOTOGRAPHER: Steven "Lucky" Benson |
VA Pin-Up
I've been going back and forth from NY to VA for many years now... I've had the greatest opportunity to work with a very talented photographer, Dexter Cohen, before leaving VA for good. The end results of the shoot surpassed my expectations and I thank him for it. Up to this day, I am amazed at these same pics...
Make sure you follow him on twitter: @dexterdcohenIEI
Photographer: Jack Manning
Shoutout to Jack (@Jaxonphotogroup) and my "home-skillet" M (@M_eez) Make sure you follow them on Twitter!
Check out his official site:
http://jaxonphotogroup.com/main/
Daily Cocktail: Tiannah Bruce
Daily Cocktail: Tiannah Bruce: "Beautiful. Passionate. Tiannah. Name : MissTiannah Birthday : 11/11/85 Location: New York City (Where You Want Me To Be) Titles: Mod..."
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